The Rebirth...After a very close encounter with death, the value of life strikes me like a brick.
Humans - A Brilliant species have evolved swiftly and graciously over a billion years in this planet, although highly intelligent we were nothing short of problems - Catastrophes and Death (largely caused by us). Sometimes, comparing the evolution of humans with other species makes me think that we don't belong here. Our intelligence combined with Greed and Dominance has taken over this planet and also goes beyond this one.
I'm a resultant of a billion years of evolution. My ancestors have survived and perished during tumultuous situations to give rise to a lively being such as myself. But.. WHO AM I??
I'm just another clog in the wheel. One among the 7 Billion humans inhabiting this beautiful place, living either with a denial or a false sense of superiority. Today, however, something magical happened. I realized that I (my state of mind) is governed by two primordial forces FEAR and GREED. These two forces holds me and directs me like a puppet.
Not just any puppet. I was a person tormented by feelings and emotions, undeniably was suffering from an Addiction that was holding me for more than 10 years.
I had missed many chances in life. Chances of being successful, great, independent, charming etc. All emotions cluttered my mind left me feeling guilty and pathetic.
My struggle against my addiction began a couple of years back, when I realized things got out of my hand. I always ended up in failures feeling pathetic, there had been times I cried in solace.
My longest streak against my addiction is 55 days (and going on). I was a minuscule close towards failure, God didn't let me down. I was successfully able to dodge away the failure miraculously. I always under estimated Self Control.
However, Self control bought me this far in my life . Good things had been happening in my life from the time I stayed away from this addictive behavior. I wish this amazing streak to continue forever. Although, still the evil is lurking around. The way I dodged away pain and suffering makes me believe that I have reached a stage in life where I have the self control to determine and dictate my life.
My Soul is no longer subservient to my body, It is the other way around. My Soul is an artist and my body is a brush and the world is my canvas. My magical journey begins..
The primordial forces no longer dictate me, as I broke the mental shackles today. I'm going to govern my body and my state of mind is going to be at a fine point between Tranquility and Turbulence.
Humans - A Brilliant species have evolved swiftly and graciously over a billion years in this planet, although highly intelligent we were nothing short of problems - Catastrophes and Death (largely caused by us). Sometimes, comparing the evolution of humans with other species makes me think that we don't belong here. Our intelligence combined with Greed and Dominance has taken over this planet and also goes beyond this one.
I'm a resultant of a billion years of evolution. My ancestors have survived and perished during tumultuous situations to give rise to a lively being such as myself. But.. WHO AM I??
I'm just another clog in the wheel. One among the 7 Billion humans inhabiting this beautiful place, living either with a denial or a false sense of superiority. Today, however, something magical happened. I realized that I (my state of mind) is governed by two primordial forces FEAR and GREED. These two forces holds me and directs me like a puppet.
Not just any puppet. I was a person tormented by feelings and emotions, undeniably was suffering from an Addiction that was holding me for more than 10 years.
I had missed many chances in life. Chances of being successful, great, independent, charming etc. All emotions cluttered my mind left me feeling guilty and pathetic.
My struggle against my addiction began a couple of years back, when I realized things got out of my hand. I always ended up in failures feeling pathetic, there had been times I cried in solace.
My longest streak against my addiction is 55 days (and going on). I was a minuscule close towards failure, God didn't let me down. I was successfully able to dodge away the failure miraculously. I always under estimated Self Control.
However, Self control bought me this far in my life . Good things had been happening in my life from the time I stayed away from this addictive behavior. I wish this amazing streak to continue forever. Although, still the evil is lurking around. The way I dodged away pain and suffering makes me believe that I have reached a stage in life where I have the self control to determine and dictate my life.
My Soul is no longer subservient to my body, It is the other way around. My Soul is an artist and my body is a brush and the world is my canvas. My magical journey begins..
The primordial forces no longer dictate me, as I broke the mental shackles today. I'm going to govern my body and my state of mind is going to be at a fine point between Tranquility and Turbulence.
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